This is a word that describes me perfectly, chaotic !!!
This week was also chaotic and not because I had to, but because I am crazy about everything.
We started with intake interview rehabilitation doctor in Haren on Monday, because in consultation with Huisarts, we decided last year to go back for a rehabilitation program.
there I read this great quote on the wall:
"Dare to think about what moves and touches you"
I sat at the doctor for an hour and a half, compared everything with 2 years ago.
My answers to the questions, but also the physical examination done again.
And it was clear that my lower back, hips and knees really got worse.
With every movement he made with my knees and hips, I felt and heard it just overflow. But when I told them that I also wanted to move, so perhaps I did not rehabilitate them, he immediately checked which doctors were suitable for my new home.
He will now refer me to a rehabilitation doctor in Heerenveen, but he also adds a whole treatment plan that we have come up with together with physiotherapists. So that I do not have to go through everything again and that we can deal with the most important thing and that is to find confidence in myself and my body.
So that was a nice and good conversation, but still can not get to sleep in the evening by pushing my body that day.
Tuesday I got the results of the blood tests, which were completely perfect !!!!
So I finally thought good news, but after that came you have to pick up a form this week and make an appointment with the cardiologist for a holter box because we have to exclude that your heart is good.
And then comes the stress, tension and fear. I also have Tietze's syndrome
(What is Tietze's syndrome?) The chest is made up of ribs that are connected to the sternum via cartilage structures, and this flexible cartilage allows the chest to move flexibly during breathing, ie swell when breathing in and shrinking again when Breathing out of the chest of Tietze, this cartilage is inflamed, causing it to swell underneath the sternum, causing painful pain, coughing, sneezing, moving, sighing, and usually pain on one side of the chest. A red and sore area may also appear on the chest)
But I always had only left side of my ribs, but of course I can continue to the rest of the ribs, but your heart is there too, so now every time I can feel a stitch or something I'm shocked, so I hope soon just before the holter cupboard gives something rest.
But since I still want to move and I am a person who wants to keep the most stupid things because maybe you will ever need them. I thought no !!!! We will find out and redeem myself from all the luggage of the past years.
I read somewhere about the KonMari method, which consists of two steps Storage or Disposal.
The question you ask in everything is what you encounter with figuring out is "Does it spark Joy?" "Does it make me feel happy?" Answer then do you like it, the answer is No, then it can go away.
And when I look at what I've saved and if I'm honest, it does not bother me, but there was a moment when I needed it.
But now I have peace in my head, even though it is still chaotic, by distance from things that have held me in the past.
Moments that reminded me of the things that I could do at that time, maybe that's why I kept it.
Same with my heel shoes that can not leave, and now use them as accessories every time another pair in the closet!
But relinquishing the past and feeling things you remembered who you once felt is liberating as if a new one is coming, and that I must first create room for it.
But since I still want to move and I am a person who wants to keep the most stupid things because maybe you will ever need them. I thought no !!!!
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